Falling in the General Direction of Up

I sat with my feet in the Selkirk Waterway today.  The sun warming my back, a breeze flipping my hair away from my face and the soft lapping of the water - the noise of industry and emergency vehicles a distant background hum that did nothing to distract  from the peace I felt.  Some long needed quiet.  A massive blue heron just flew by at eye level, skimming the surface of the water. I shake my head - as I always do - at how something that looks and sounds that awkward doesn't just bump into stuff more or take epic face plants into the water.  How, in all it's gangly glory, does it still manage to be so graceful? I needed an afternoon like this. As I sit there, my feet cool and turning prune-y I start thinking about trust.  And faith.  And certainty.  And how all those things have collided so many times in my life.  All the time's I've wanted to have faith but also wanted to have certainty. The two just never seemed to be able to co-ex...

OK - my original title was "Shittiest Day Ever".  I know....that didn't sound like a great title.  I should be a little more delicate.  Polite.  Circumspect.  And it really wasn't my shittiest day ever.  I had that day already and it wasn't this. But it was a super bad day. I nearly quit my job today.  I nearly walked out.  I nearly called my realtor and put a For Sale sign on my lawn.  I nearly got in my car and drove away from it all.   People. They suck.   Some days you think you've seen it all and then...people...they surprise you.  And not in a good way. Bitchy, clueless, rude, unbelievably unprofessional, bullying, insolent, soulless people... I can't even begin to explain everything that went sideways today.  And the list of people who contributed to this being one of the worst days ever since starting my job over 2 1/2 years ago is long. The level of disrespect...not just on...